Probably you should stop talking so loud when people are on the phone.
Probably you should stop eating that amount of food everyday because I could fit one of your legs, which is hysterical and makes my worries be pointless when I'm trying to give em sense.
Probably you should be around a little more often and not only when it's dead hour, which implies it is so for me as well.
Probably you shouldn't be calling when you see the busy sign.
Probably i should do what you feel like doing in the moment you feel like doing it.
Probably i should stop blaming myself every once a while, which is usually a week or so.
Probalby i should take those boxes and throw them in a bigger one, and then shut the hell up.
Probably i should work my ass off and pretend i should do even more?
Probably you should be more creative, and get beyond the borders so you can say your work is original and different from everyone's?
Probably i should have asked if i could help him while he was choosing his meal before leaving without taking anything?
Probably i should have washed my hair cause it was possible i could have run into him randomly in the morning?
Probably you should stop referring to him because there's no him, or he his benjo's or anything you can come up with at the moment.
And that's really true, trust me it is true.
Probably i shouldn't find myself in a 6 hours jetleg place cause so i could talk to someone who cares about me after getting back from a shitty job.
Probably you should call me now, and tell me you're in the city with a spare beer.
Probably, no sorry, surely i shouldn't have been so dramatic that day.
Probably i should have said it's fine by me.
Probably you shouldn't crave for reassurement.
Probably you should not listen to that song anymore.
Probably i should get in touch with you again. Or maybe just fucking get rid of the thought of you whenever i get on that train.
So probably that's what i'mma do now. I'm taking off tomorrow, and go grab a coffee wherever this other one might be at. Or if not so, just spend the afternoon looking for him. I got 30 dollars tips, i think i can afford a bit of extra caffeine worth 2 dollars 25. And, who knows, a little bit of self-esteem.
Even thought i should stop believing in fairy tales.
That, for sure, might help me start thinking reasonably.